It’s been along time between drinks on this blog. I have been writing but not doing much in the way of venting or discussing. However, having just heard that over half the population of this country, Australia, is in lockdown, I thought it might be appropriate to put some short stories out there. This has a twofold purpose: 1) it makes me publish some things that have been sitting and growing on my computer for far too long, and 2) they might help you pass the time.
Most of the stories are unmistakably Australian but you don’t need to be Australian to appreciate them. Having said that, this first story has a lot of colloquialisms and terms that may be unfamiliar to some so I’ve included a glossary at the end, just in case. The stories vary in length but I’m starting with the longest.
A word of warning: As these stories are about real people, they sometimes use language that may not be palatable to some. Do with that what you will. Feel free to pass the URL on to anyone that you think might be interested. I hope to publish one per week. All feedback is appreciated.
Looking for Rain
A boy is lost in the Outback but he is on a mission
Most people couldn’t remember the last time it’d rained, ’cause if it’s been rainin’ off and on for a bit, you usually only notice after it’s been gone a fair while, and by then you can’t remember. But I could.
It was the day before my tenth birthday. It’d been stormin’ and rainin’ all week. I was gettin’ down, ’cause we were gunna have a party down at the river and play cricket and swim and stuff, but Mum started talkin’ about everyone goin’ to the Burger Barn instead ’cause of the rain. I wanted the rain to stop so bad.
The next day – my birthday – it was amazin’. I looked out past the rooster on the fence, and the sky was so clear it looked like it had just been scrubbed clean. And the sun was comin’ down from the top of the hill so bright and warm it was makin’ all the sheep shut their eyes and smile up at it. I couldn’t believe it. It was magic.
Five years on, and in all that time it still hadn’t rained. I reckoned it was my fault. So, on the day before my fifteenth birthday, I decided I’d get up before the sun and go lookin’ for the rain.
I left Mum and Dad a note. They’d’ve thought I was out of me tree, ’specially Dad. He’d been pretty narky since he’d started workin’ for the Council – mowin’ lawns in town. He knew it was charity, ’cause the grass didn’t grow anyway; but he needed the money. Least he got somethin’. Jimbo’s old man had to sell up, and they had to go over to Bungaweenah to live with Jim’s uncle, who was an ambulance man. Banks suck. Jim’s dad was born on that farm.
Our creek’d been dry for ages, but I still reckoned the best way to find the rain was to follow the creek up as far as it went, ’cause that’s where the rain’d be most of the time; otherwise the creek wouldn’t have gotten started. I’d never been all the way up, but now was the time to give it a go.
Just before dawn, I nicked up behind the house and cut along the back ridge just inside our top fence. It was pretty dry; just a few tufts of sandy-coloured grass in rock-hard ground, ’cept for where dogs had scratched under the fence – and that was dust. I felt bad, like the ground was real sad and sayin’ to me, “Why didya do it?”
Down the other side of the ridge there was a gully with some spindly green grass in it near a rock wall. That was the top dam. Through the ti trees on the other side, the slope went up to the top of Bonnie’s hill – that was named after Dad’s old bluey who died when Dad was a kid. She got struck by lightnin’ chasin’ a possum in a storm. Grandma reckoned Dad bawled for days, but he said that Grandma was ravin’ and that the dog deserved it for bein’ so stupid. I reckon that’s pretty hard on the dog myself.
From the top of the hill you got a fair view of everything. Out to the left you could see the roofs over at Jim’s place; ’cept Jim’s not there anymore. Past that and a bit further left, you could see green trees and the top of the church. That was town. Down in front, the creek came back around the foot of the hill and headed up the valley to the right and just kept goin’ as far as you could see, through hills of brown and dirty gum green; and over the top, a hot shimmerin’ dark blue roof that didn’t look like it’d let a drop through, even if God turned his fire hose on it.
In me backpack were four lamb sandwiches, three apples and a big bottle of cordial. I took a sip and screwed the cap back on. I felt a bit funny inside when I looked at the food, ’cause I realised that when it ran out, that’d be it. The strange thing was that I don’t think I minded all that much, ’cause if I didn’t find the rain, I reckoned it’d be better if I was out of the way anyway. I’d spilt the beans to Mum and Dad in the letter, so there was no hidin’ whose fault the drought was anymore. They’d say things like, “Don’t be silly, Tim! The drought’s not your fault!” – and stuff like that. But I know the truth: six hours before my tenth birthday, I’d wished on my life that it’d never rain again – and it hadn’t.
I skidded down the slope to the creek bed and sent a few sheep skitterin’. They were skinny, mangy lookin’ things. Jeez, everything I saw reminded me.
It took half a day to reach the top end of the property. It normally only took about quarter of an hour or so in Dad’s ute.The fence was down in a couple of spots I could see. Dad hadn’t checked it in over a year. On the other side of the fence, the brown hills started – easy at first, then they got pretty steep and rocky. But the creek bed twisted its way around them, and it wasn’t real hard walking, ’cept there was no wind, so by the time I got to the swimmin’ hole I was so hot that I’d stripped down to me shorts and boots.
There was no water; just the same white sand and rocks I’d had most of the way up. There was a bit of shade though, where the cliff went pretty well straight up, and the shadow stretched out for a few metres. I put my back against the cliff-face, and it was cold. It felt good. I cooled down a bit before I had another sip of cordial. I remembered that from Scouts – you don’t drink as much that way. Across the other side, near where I’d come in, a red-belly moved into the shadow of some big tree roots. Apart from the sheep, it was the first livin’ thing I’d seen all day. Down at my feet, I noticed a rock that me and Jim had scraped our initials in a few years ago. We’d thrown it into the deepest part of the swimmin’ hole, and we couldn’t find it after that. There I was, sittin’ where heaps of water used to be. I wished Jim was there, but if he was, I’d have to tell him everything, and then he’d hate me. I was pretty sad, lookin’ at that rock. I left it where it was.
This was almost as far as I’d ever been up the creek. A bit further, and the cliffs started to close in on both sides, and then you got to the falls. Me and Jim had been to the top of the falls before, but we didn’t go any further, ’cause it took so long to get there that you had to start goin’ home pretty well straight away. I’d spent half me day walkin’ to the fence, and that’s as far as Dad normally drove us, so I reckoned that I’d probably spend the night at the top of the falls.
There was a bit of water at the top; probably just enough to keep half a dozen frogs alive for a few more days. Last time I’d come up was with Jim, and it’d looked like one of them oasis things in the desert then – lots of green and runnin’ water and birds and stuff. Now it was so quiet and brown. The sun was slippin’ behind the scrub on the nearest ridge. I’d never seen over there, but there was a thin, stretchy cloud right where the sun was, and I had to believe that’s where the rain was too.
For years we’d watched the weather on the tele. All those lines on the map and all. I know they think they’ve got it all figured out – where the rain comes from, or where it doesn’t come from – but I don’t reckon it’s that simple. I reckon there’s more to it, like it’s something spiritual – sort of like what Pastor Mick talks about – and they can’t show that on a map.
Out here it’s pretty spiritual. I mean, it’s still real, where you can touch and feel it; but the rocks and trees and the hills – there’s something more goin’ on. The land and the wind don’t care if there’s rain or not; just us – the animals and people and trees – and we’re just passin’ through.
I didn’t have any matches, and I was hopeless at all that Scout-type stuff, so I had to do without a fire. I was pretty lonely, and I missed Jim. I thought that maybe he might understand, you know about the drought and all.
The backpack wasn’t much of a pillow, but at least I’d brought a jumper, ’cause it cooled off a fair bit as the night got older. It was so dark, the only thing I could see was the sky. I wondered about the letter and what Mum and Dad had made of it. I reckoned Dad wouldn’t start lookin’ for me until tomorrow at the earliest. The stars were so thick that I kinda got lost in them before I fell asleep.
I got up before the sun. The cordial was cold, and I had half a lamb sandwich while I sat looking at the sky again. I saw six shooting stars. There wasn’t much else to do except start walkin’, so I did, as soon as I could see where to put my feet.
I headed towards the ridge, and after about twenty minutes or so it started turnin’ gold with the risin’ sun. The creek made a vee in the ridge, like if Mum pulls the cotton too tight when she’s stitchin’ the bottoms of me pants’ legs. In Science they said it took the creek millions of years to carve its way through, but I don’t see how it could’ve. That would’ve meant that the creek would’ve had to start up as high as the ridge is now, so where did the rest of the land go? Anyway, it’s pretty hard to imagine that much water flowin’ now.
Thinkin’ about water made me thirsty. I had about two-thirds of a two-litre bottle of cordial left. I remembered gettin’ dehydrated once. It was the middle of summer, and I was coming back from town in the ute with Dad. He took one of his detours to check out some new fencin’ wire or somethin’ that old man Morgan was usin’ in his bottom paddock. We never got there, ’cause the ute started hissin’ and steamin’, and then it stopped. We were twenty k’s from anywhere and it was over forty in the shade. Dad didn’t believe in mobile phones, so after we’d waited half an hour for someone to come by, we started walkin’ back to town. By the time we got to the main road, it was three hours later. Dad had me sit in the shade back from the road while he stood and waited for someone to come along. My head felt like it had an axe buried in it, and I was throwin’ up.
Mum was spewin’ too when we got home. She went right off at Dad about it. I remembered that no matter how much I drank, I was still thirsty. I looked up at the ridge. I didn’t much fancy feelin’ that way again.
It couldn’t’ve been much more than about half past six, but I was really cookin’ so when I got to the only gum tree for ages, I sat in its shade for a while. Saltbush seemed to be the only thing that was happy up here. Even the tree seemed ticked off. Maybe it’d gotten word that the little bugger who started the drought was on his way through.
Once, when our family was on holidays, we stayed at my cousin Scott’s place. His dad owned the local servo in the town where they lived – right across the road from the Council pool. It was a stinkin’ summer, so I reckon we spent every day there. It was great, ’cept one day the local hoods were waitin’ for me and Scott. They grabbed us and took us around the back of the dunnies and thrashed us pretty bad. When we got back home Dad and Uncle Dave were drinkin’ beer in the backyard. They just laughed and told us it’d toughen us up. I didn’t go swimmin’ for the rest of the time we were there. I didn’t feel any tougher; just scared and a bit lonely.
It was kinda nice sittin’ in the shade and closin’ me eyes, knowin’ I could still see everything if I wanted to. Not like at night. Out here at night it feels like you’re shut tight inside your own skin, and everything around isn’t all that safe. In the day it’s different. It feels like you can stretch out as far as you can see, and it’s OK to close your eyes. That was my mistake.
It was the hottest part of the day when I woke up covered in bull ants. I jumped up and started slappin’ myself all over and rippin’ me clothes off. The buggers were everywhere. I had bites on my legs, belly, neck, ears – even one on the inside of me leg, at the top, right near my parts. That would not have been good.
After I got ’em all off and started scratchin’, I looked up at the tree and reckoned it was probably laughin’ at me. It was a paperbark, and like a goose, I’d forgotten about the beasties that live under the bark, especially when it’s this dry.
I stood in the shade for a bit to try and cool down before I started walkin’ again. I got an apple out, ’cause I felt like a different kind of sweet to the cordial. Besides, the sweet of an apple seemed to last longer too. After a couple of bites, I suddenly remembered that it was my birthday. Mum’ll care; Dad’ll just be pissed off that he’d have to spend the day lookin’ for me. Maybe he wouldn’t bother after he read the note.
I’ve thought a lot about what it means to wish on your life. It hasn’t rained since I did, so that must mean it’s a pretty powerful thing. I’ve tried to undo it, but nothin’ works. And even if I did find where the rain comes from, I didn’t really know what I was gunna do then.
The more I thought about it, the more confused I got; and I got tired too, like I had weights in my boots all the time. Sometimes I thought that if I did ever get there, I’d just lay down and go to sleep forever, ’cause at least I’d’ve tried, and maybe that’s what it’d take to undo the wish.
The vee in the ridge didn’t look much closer, but I knew I’d have to get there by sunset; I didn’t have enough cordial to last any longer. It was funny, but I wasn’t scared about dyin’; the thought of just fadin’ away was kinda peaceful. Out here I felt more like I belonged. The trees mightn’t’ve liked me much, but the land felt like it didn’t care about rain; it could be strong with or without it. It sort of made me feel safer, like at least I had a friend.
The sun was so hot that it was like being under a magnifyin’ glass. My neck was already burnt from the day before, ’cause I’d forgotten a hat. I never wear one at home. I could’ve put my shirt on my head, but then I’d burn everywhere else, so I used my backpack and clipped the straps under my chin. It wasn’t real comfortable, but it was enough to keep the sun off. I must’ve looked like an idiot.
After a couple of hours I stopped at a bunch of trees at the edge of the creek bed. I hadn’t followed the creek, ’cause it wound around too much, and I reckoned that the quickest way was a straight line. Apart from a few wombat holes, it was pretty level with just a few ups and downs.
The trees were tall and straight with white bark, and the creek bed there was mostly made up of big river stones, with only a bit of sand. The vee was a lot closer now, and I could see the creek pretty clearly, ’cause there were quite a few patches of green as it wound up towards the ridge.
There weren’t any roads; the land didn’t belong to anyone, ’cept the local tribe, and they don’t reckon they own it anyway. They had stories about goin’ out here for somethin’ to do with dreamin’ and sacred places. I reckoned those trees might’ve been a sacred place; the air was different around them: cooler and a bit sort of friendly but kind of important; not scary like I thought a sacred place would be. Anyway, what would I know?
I sat in the shade, makin’ sure there weren’t any ants and had a whole sandwich while I cooled down. I tried not to eat too fast, but it was hard. There was only about three centimetres of cordial left, so I only had a mouthful after the sanga.
I reckoned that I had enough to get me to the vee, but even if I changed my mind, I didn’t reckon I could get back anyway. It was too hot. I felt kind of peaceful about that. I wasn’t so confused anymore, ’cause there was only one hope, and if that didn’t work out, I guess they’d find me some day.
I closed my eyes and thought about Mum and how upset she’d be. They probably wouldn’t have got the note till they’d gone into my room after I didn’t come home that night. I hoped Dad didn’t find me. He’d be goin’ off about how stupid and selfish I was and “look at what you’ve done to your Mother.”
Then I heard a voice sayin’, “Whatcha lookin’ for, fella?” There was an old tribal bloke standin’ beside me.
“Lookin’ for rain,” I said
“Hmmmph…no you’re not,” he replied, almost as if I’d lied to him. I started to tell him the story, but he just walked off. I went to stand up to go after him and ask him what he meant, but I looked down to find my left leg was missing.
I woke up, and my leg was asleep; I’d had it crossed underneath me. Still, the dream was a bit weird.
With all the green, I decided to follow the creek from here on, just in case there was some water. I didn’t really want to die of thirst; starvation maybe, but thirst would suck. I stayed up on the bank to walk ’cause there were too many big stones in the creek. There were plenty on the bank too, but they were easier to get around.
After an hour and a half, the vee became a few folds in the ridge and mostly-brown hills, but the sun was makin’ the edges of them gold by this time. I had another mouthful of cordial and took out an apple to eat while I walked. The ground was goin’ up now and the creek went up in steps. It was a bit sad ’cause you could see how the stones were and that there must’ve once been pretty waterfalls and things there.
I was sweatin’ like a three-day-dead pig, but when I finally looked back, I was well up above the plain. Above the trees I could see the top of the falls where I’d started that mornin’. It seemed a long way away and a long time ago.
The sun wasn’t far off goin’ down, and it was gettin’ hard to see in some of the gullies that I was workin’ through. I had to use my hands a lot ’cause by that time I didn’t have a choice but to be in the creek bed. There were no paths and too much scrub on the banks. Besides, sometimes the banks were too bloody steep.
Once I’d gone with Dad to help free one of the sheep that’d got caught in the fence in the lower gully. It was just after dark, and our torch’d died just after we got down there. I was s’posed to hold the sheep while he tried to get its leg free. He must have hurt it ’cause it jerked out of my grip and knocked Dad over. He ripped his hand up on the barbed wire and used some pretty choice words at me for lettin’ go of the sheep.
My hands were pretty sore now and grazed from trying to get handholds on rough stones. Sometimes I thought I could hear water, and then I’d climb up another dry waterfall to more sand and stones. I’d heard that sometimes creeks can flow underground, and all you have to do to get water is dig down a bit, but I didn’t have the energy. I only had half a sandwich left and about a mouthful of cordial. I had to get up higher.
Then it hit me. Did I really think I was gunna find the rain? I stopped, and it was so quiet I reckoned I could hear my hands throbbin’. I thought of the old bloke in my dream. Why didn’t he believe me?
I was so tired, but I realised after all that tellin’ myself that if I didn’t find rain it’d be better if I was gone, I really didn’t want to die just yet. I closed my eyes and cried a bit.
After I’d settled down, I was about to keep movin’ when I heard a new noise. It reminded me of a time when I was a little kid, and there was heaps of water around. Dad was washing the car, while me and Jim were playin’ with the hose. I was wavin’ it towards Jim, and curls of water were goin’ splat, splat, splat on the ground. I remember that it hadn’t sounded like water. I lifted my head and saw what looked like waves of river sand bouncing off a great boulder above me.
I got a bit scared and climbed really slowly to try and get a better look. I turned my head on its side to see between two big stones. A rock wallaby was busy diggin’ in the creek bed a bit further on and flickin’ sand in the air. I must’ve let out some kind of noise, ’cause he looked up and saw me and shot off like a bullet.
I went over to where he’d been diggin’. He’d made a pretty big hole, and the sand further down was wet. Water was starting to make a little puddle. I got down and dug it out some more. In about ten minutes I reckon there was enough water to about half fill my bottle. I finished the cordial and laid the bottle in the puddle. It was amazingly clear when I lifted the bottle up. I drank that and then half-filled it a few more times. It felt like my body was soakin’ it up like a sponge. But while I was sittin’ and waitin’ for the water, I kept on thinkin’ about my dream.
The sky was still blue above, but it was gettin’ darker by the time I ate my last half sandwich. My mind was a bit better, and even though I wasn’t sure about too much, I wanted to keep goin’. I reckoned another half an hour would do me before I found somewhere to sleep. I managed to get my bottle two-thirds full and headed off. There was a steady wind blowin’ from the northwest, right into my face, and though it cooled me down a bit, I knew that it was dryin’ me out too.
After half an hour it was pretty dark, but I wanted to move on. The ground seemed level, but I knew I hadn’t reached the top of the ridge yet. I reckoned that if it was level then I didn’t really need to see, and I could make some extra ground before I stopped. I had my hands out in front of me in case I tripped, but I wasn’t expecting the ground to just disappear.
I wasn’t in the air long, but when I hit it hurt a lot. My head was OK ’cause it hit the sand, but my hip and shin hit rock, and I was squealin’. When the pain eased off a bit, I started feelin’ around to see if I was bleedin’. I didn’t seem to be, and I thought that was probably a good thing.
I tried to stand up, but my hip felt like it was on fire, and I reckoned that my shin bone was broken, so I managed to drag myself into a spot that was all sand and got myself as comfortable as I could to wait until the sun came up.
It was about the worst night I can remember. It felt like everything from my belly down was throbbin’ and nothin’ I did made it any better, just worse. When first light came, I couldn’t believe how stupid I’d been. The creek bed was level, but I’d gone up a bit on one side where the ground sloped up behind a fallen gum tree to a drop of about two metres. If I’d been ready for it I could’ve jumped. As it was, I had a lump the size of a tennis ball on my shin, and I don’t know what was goin’ on with my hip, but it wasn’t good. There was no way I was goin’ anywhere.
Back near the foot of the fallen gum, a big bush spread out low over the creek bed. It took about half an hour to drag myself into its shade. I cried ’cause it hurt so much, and I realised that this was probably it; I wasn’t gunna find the rain, and I felt like I’d failed in that. But another part felt OK, ’cause I reckoned that I’d given it my best shot. I still had half a bottle of water, and if I could get my mind off the pain, I might’ve been able to sleep.
The sun climbed higher, and I saw clouds come and go; I dozed a bit and heard some animals in the scrub. I thought I saw that old tribal bloke again, but he didn’t say anything.
After a while, the pain only bothered me when I moved, but before too long I was so tired I couldn’t even lift my arm. The water was gone, but I heard thunder once and some black cockatoos goin’ somewhere. Black cockies always seemed to be goin’ somewhere. I started to feel cold and I thought I heard voices; then it was quiet again. The next thing, I felt drops on my face, and I smiled.
Geoff Jackson – Tim’s dad
Most of the blokes around here were born and raised on their farms, at least the ones who still have farms. Shelley and I took the farm over when my Uncle Stan fell off the perch. I was his only family.
Shell was pregnant and we knew bugger all about sheep; but we were young and weren’t scared of hard work. What they don’t tell you, though, is it doesn’t matter how hard you work if it doesn’t rain.
Old Stan had let the place run down by the time we came along. A lot of the sheep were crook or had wandered off. But the land was good and there were two full dams.
When we moved in, Shell wasn’t far off dropping the baby. The nearest hospital was an hour and a half away, so we decided to go with the local midwife. She was older and had delivered most of the kids around here. Unfortunately, Shell had complications. The baby was born OK, but Shell got ripped up inside. By the time the ambos got her to hospital, it was touch and go. After that we couldn’t have any more kids.
It took a couple of years, but we got the farm going pretty well. People around here helped out, and we made some good friends. We actually started to feel like the farm was ours. There was plenty of rain back then; everything was going well.
We’d had some issues with Tim as a little fella; he was a bit late in a few ways, especially walking and talking; he didn’t say much ’til he was nearly four. But with numbers he was amazing! Takes after his mum; that’s why she does the books and not me.
Timmy needed a bit of help at school with socialising and helping other kids to learn how he ticked. It didn’t work too well; kids are kids. But James seemed to understand him – he was the son of our friends Pete and Karen – and he and Tim spent a lot of time together. All it takes is one good friend, I reckon.
The rain stopped about ten, twelve years ago, when Tim was just a little bloke. We had a few days of it about five years back, just enough to make a few puddles and turn the dams into mud traps for the sheep. We haven’t had a drop since then.
Last year things started to bite, and Pete and Karen had to sell their place. That farm had been in his family for generations. We didn’t owe much at all on ours, just what we’d borrowed for extra feed for the sheep. It didn’t seem right that us relative newcomers still had our farm.
One day, Tim went walkabout. We didn’t know it at the time; he often took off with a sandwich and spent a day out with the sheep, or climbing trees, or he and Jim would catch frogs down by the town bridge.
I was at work – looking after the gardens in town, just to help make ends meet – and Shelley was talking to the accountant, which seemed to happen a lot these days. It was the day before Tim’s birthday, and he usually liked to keep an eye on things if there was a celebration coming up, especially one that involved him. So, when he wasn’t home for dinner, we thought it was a bit unusual.
Shell was worried, so I hopped in the ute and went into town to see if anyone had seen him. No one had. I wasn’t surprised; since Pete and Karen had left with young James, Tim didn’t really go into town much.
When I got back, Shell was sitting on the step crying. She’d found a note that Tim had left in his room. I didn’t know what to think when I read it; part of me thought it was a joke, but joking’s not really Tim’s way.
Dear Mum and Dad,
I know things have been tough for a while now with the farm and all. This is really hard to say cause I know that you’ll tell me that it’s nothing to do with me. But I know different.
See just before my tenth birthday it’d been pouring all week, and it looked like my party was gonna have to be inside. I knew all my cousins were coming and Jim and stuff and I really wanted to have the party outside down by the river so we could play cricket and have a fire. This is really hard.
The night before my birthday I wished on my life that it’d never rain again. And it hasn’t.
I know what you’re gonna say but it’s true. I know for a fact that it hasn’t rained since then and I know it’s my fault. So I’m heading out to find the rain and I’m not coming back until I find it.
I really hope I can bring the rain back. I’m more sorry than I’ve ever felt about anything. I know it’s my fault and I hope I can fix it.
Shelley was beside herself. I was thinking about where he might’ve gone; where I would’ve gone, ’cause part of me felt a bit strange, like I totally got what he was doing. But the stronger part said that he was crazy. With Shell blubbering her face off, I thought I’d better keep that notion to myself.
I rang the cops over at Bungaweenah, and they said they’d send a bloke over to help. I had no idea where Tim had gone. Of course, he might come back on his own, but his mind worked in strange ways, and usually once he’d decided something, that was it; so there was no guarantee that logic was gonna have anything to do with where we’d find him.
A thousand thoughts ran through my mind. When you’ve got all this stuff to do – working, running a farm, keeping everything going – you do what’s in front of you. I guess I didn’t have a clue about Tim – what he was thinking, how he was feeling. I sort of hoped that Shell was looking after all that… I mean, I know I was his dad and all, but Shell was better with that sort of stuff.
It was nearly midnight before Dave, the cop from Bungaweenah, showed. By then a few of the blokes from town had rallied as well. A couple of the women made sandwiches and cups of tea. I heard them talking about Tim and how it wasn’t true that it hadn’t rained in all that time. I told them that if Tim said it hadn’t rained in five years, then it hadn’t. He checked the rain gauge every day, even if he was crook. I hadn’t realised why he was doing it; I thought it was just one of his quirks.
Dave said that if Tim hadn’t shown up, or we hadn’t found him, within twenty-four hours, they’d be able to get a helicopter out from the city. Because he was a bit older, they weren’t too worried. I was itching to get out there, but after we’d read Tim’s letter again, we couldn’t agree about which way we should head. Shell was too upset to even think; most of the blokes reckoned that Narraba Peak was where he was headed ’cause that was the highest ground around, and it’d sometimes get rain that nowhere else would.
I wasn’t so sure; I knew what they were on about, but Timmy didn’t know that neck of the woods. It was a long way off, and it was a few hours walk before you even left the road. There hadn’t been any reports of him on any of the roads, and they’re the quickest way to Narraba.
I reckoned that he’d headed up the creek; it just seemed to make the most sense to me. For most of his life, that’s where the water had been, so I figured that’s where he’d go to look for the rain.
Still, it was pretty hard to argue. All I had was a gut feeling, and I wasn’t real happy about trusting it.
In the end, we decided to split up. I was gonna head up the creek from our place with Mick Partridge, the minister from the local church, and the others were gonna go towards Narraba Peak. We agreed that if any of us found evidence of Timmy, we’d join up.
They decided that they’d wait until first light, but I wasn’t having a bar of it. If my boy was out there on his own, I wasn’t gonna wait five hours before I started looking for him.
Mick made the most sense; after the others headed off, he looked me in the eye and said to me, “Geoff, I’ll go with you anywhere you want to go. I’m here to find your boy. But I’d hate to think that we missed a clue because we didn’t have enough light.”
I thought about that. It wasn’t winter; Timmy’d be OK through the night. It made sense. Plus, it was gonna be rugged, and no vehicles would be able to get in, so we’d need to take supplies, possibly even enough to spend a night if we needed to.
Mick and I drove up just before first light. We got to the top of the farm after about twenty minutes. The track wasn’t the best; I hadn’t been up there in a while.
We took backpacks with water, food and the CB radio; phones were no good – no reception. Shelley stayed back at the house to run the radio. I knew that she’d rather be out looking, but she’d be the best one to know for sure if any of us found anything that we thought belonged to Tim. We took sleeping bags too, just in case. I didn’t want Tim to spend another night out there, but there was no telling.
After about half an hour, we got up to the swimming hole. I hadn’t been there in years, and I nearly didn’t recognise it. What was once a pool a couple of metres deep was now just a sand pit by a steep, stone wall. The sun was edging in, and I looked around for any sign. I found a rock with some initials on it: JB and TJ. As soon as I saw it, I knew that there must have been an argument. Tim would not have been happy letting Jim Bradley put his initials first.
Between the rock and the stone wall were two small, shallow wells in the sand; they were barely noticeable, and maybe they were nothing, but they might’ve been where he’d sat. It was an odd moment; I didn’t know whether they were footprints, but I became aware that Tim was doing this thing that had sort of taken him into another world – a world that could just as easily have killed him as let him live. Even then, I didn’t know if he was alive, but everything inside me was willing him to be. At the same time, I was getting this guilty feeling growing in my guts about all the years and all the work, and that if we didn’t find Timmy, none of it – including the bloody farm – was worth a sheep’s turd.
Shell radioed that Pete and Karen had arrived. They’d been out when I rang the night before, so I’d left them a message. Karen would be good for Shell, and Pete was going to join Mick and me.
It was nearly an hour before Pete got to us; he’d brought Jim, which was just as well, because Jim knew the way to the swimming hole. Pete said that Shelley had checked Tim’s room to see if she could work out what he’d taken. He had his backpack and boots, but she couldn’t tell what else was gone, apart from half a loaf of bread and some lamb from the fridge. That made me feel a bit better; it’d probably be enough to keep him going until we got to him. But the weather was pretty warm already, and I wasn’t real happy that we’d had to hang around waiting for Pete. Mick and I had used the time to check all around for tracks, but there was nothing for sure. Before we left, I saw Jim pick up the rock and put it in his backpack.
Even though we’d had to wait, it was good to see Pete; I’d missed him. It must’ve been hard for him to come back to help with all the memories around here. He said that Gordon and Sheila – Shelley’s parents – had just arrived. Gordon had gone straight out to join the others on the Narraba track. That was a relief; I didn’t need him chipping in his bloody opinions. He probably chose Narraba so that he wouldn’t have to be with me anyway.
I’d never been to the top of the cascades. I remembered Tim had told us about it once over dinner. I was in a crap mood for some reason and cut him off for going so far from home, even though I’d been the one who dropped him and Jim up at the fence in the morning. I felt this kind of pain in my chest at the thought of it and wished I hadn’t been such an arse.
We got to the top of the cascades just after one. When I saw how brown it was, as far as you could see, the hopelessness of it all kicked me in the guts; I felt sad for Tim, looking for rain in a giant dirt oven.
A couple of scrape marks on the ground could’ve been from boots, but could just as easily have been from a roo. There was nothing in the mud and the rest of the ground was so hard none of us left footprints anyway.
I’d asked Jim if Tim had talked to him about his plan, but he was as clueless as the rest of us. When I searched up ahead, the binoculars didn’t show anything either, and the thought of heading out into that heat without something more to go on was pretty daunting. Then Mick spotted something not far from the scrape marks we’d seen earlier. He was squatting down and sniffing his fingers.
“You can thank the ants for the clue,” he said.
Ants were swarming around a little reddish-brown spot on the hard clay, about the size of a dollar coin.
“It’s almost gone,” he continued. “But I’m pretty sure that’s tomato sauce.”
I pressed my finger into the almost-dry spot and sniffed; there was a faint odour of tomatoes and dirt.
“You reckon?” I asked. He nodded.
I knew Tim had lamb sandwiches, and I also knew that he liked tomato sauce on them. I used to tell him it was sacrilege to put sauce on lamb, but that day I was glad he did.
I got on the radio to tell Shell. It wasn’t much to go on, but at least it was something. The Narraba Peak mob heard our conversation; Shelley’s dad’s voice came out of the speaker.
“Are you sure, Geoff? Or is it just going to be a wild goose chase?”
I bit my lip and suggested that he keep looking where he was, just in case. It would’ve taken them too long to meet up with us anyway. There weren’t any roads, and the only vehicle access was an old fire trail about eighty k’s north that eventually wound its way down from the northwest. But it was such a goat track that it’d take even a four-wheel drive a full day. That worried me a bit. If we needed to carry Tim out, we’d have to get a chopper, and who knows how long that’d take?
I stood staring into the distance and thinking about why Timmy was such a loner. I remembered one evening a couple of months back when we were watching TV after dinner, some show about Africa. A herd of zebras had been spooked by lions and was stampeding. Some of the young ones were falling and getting trampled by the herd. Tim was upset.
“Why are the little kids the ones that get run down? Why aren’t their parents protectin’ them? The lions’ll get ’em!” It took a while for Shell to calm him down. I just sat there watching him. Shell was holding him and mouthing at me, “What is wrong with you?” Good question.
Pete touched me on the shoulder, “Are you OK, Geoff?”
“Yeah,” I said. “Let’s just find Timmy.”
Pete and Jim took the left bank, while Mick and I took the right. It seemed like a bit of a joke to keep going with just a spot of what might’ve been tomato sauce as our only clue.
After about half an hour, Mick spoke up.
“Shelley’s father sounds like he’s not coping too well. How are you holding up, Geoff?”
“I reckon old Gordon’s got more of a problem with me than anything else,” I said. “He’d probably blame me for the bloody drought if anyone’d believe him.”
The irony of what I’d just said only hit after it left my mouth. Gordon had that effect on me.
He didn’t forget anything. When Shelley and I were first married, we’d bought the service station franchise over in Canning Point. It had seemed like a great opportunity, but within six months the oil company told us that they’d be opening a new centre on the town bypass. It would’ve cost us four times as much to buy in and we just couldn’t do it; so we got bugger-all for the sale of the servo and had to sell our house to pay off our debts. Then we moved in with Shelley’s parents, and I got work at the local abattoir to make ends meet.
I hated it. Gordon made no secret of the fact that he thought it was my fault that we’d lost everything. He reckoned I hadn’t planned properly. I probably hadn’t; but I was only a kid, and he hadn’t offered any help.
When Stan left us the farm, Gordon reckoned we should’ve sold it and made a fresh start in Canning Point. “What do you know about sheep, Geoff?” He said. “You only know how to kill things.”
Even Shelley went off at him for saying that. I couldn’t wait to get out of there.
Mick was looking at me. I’d been alone with my thoughts for a bit. “Yeah, but how are youholding up, Geoff?”
I stopped and looked at him and shook my head. “I don’t know, Mick; ask me when it’s over.”
All the while we were searching for clues like they were half-buried hundred-dollar notes; some sign of something – anything – that’d tell us we were on the right track.
“Look, Geoff,” Mick began again, “I don’t know what Shelley’s dad’s beef is…a-and I know that I haven’t spent a lot of time with you and Shelley, but from what I’ve seen, you’re a great husband and father. And you’ve kept the farm…”
I stopped walking.
“Are you serious, Mick?!” I interrupted angrily. “I’m mowing lawns and doing odd-jobs for Council so we can eat! And if I’m such a great father, why the fuck has Tim shot off into the never-never with the weight of the world on his shoulders?!”
The silence was like cotton wool; all I could hear was the pulse in my ears as tears pooled in my eyes, and I turned away. Mick put his hand on my shoulder.
“Mate,” he said. “All I’m saying is that you’ve got to go easy on yourself, otherwise you’re not gonna make it. You’re the one who looks like he’s got the weight of the world on his shoulders. And it’s grinding you into the ground.
“We’ll find Tim. Then you can start again with the whole father business, if you want.”
For all my grandstanding, that seemed about right. I apologised to Mick, and he just laughed it off and made me promise that I’d tell Gordon to fuck off. I laughed because I’d never heard him use that kind of language before.
Pete came over and suggested that we stop in the shade of the trees up ahead and make a plan. The reality was that even if we turned around right then – which I wasn’t about to do – there was no way we could’ve been back before nightfall, so a plan sounded like a good idea.
Jim got to the trees ahead of us and came running back, pretty well straight away.
“It’s Tim’s!” He yelled.
He was holding a bundle of something that looked like tiny streamers.
“It’s Tim’s lunch wrap! He always does this.” He said.
It was true. After a sandwich, Tim would sit and painstakingly tear his paper wrap continuously to see how long he could get it before it broke. I’d never been so grateful for one of his crazy habits.
When we arrived under the trees, I radioed Shelley and the others. It was already late in the day, so there was nothing that they could do really, except Dave, the cop, started asking questions about how much food we reckoned Tim had. I told him that water was the real issue. We’d gone through half of ours, and there was no sign or even promise of anything in the creek; and following it was about to get rough as it wound up into hills and higher country.
Dave said that he’d already been in touch with the chopper and they’d be down at first light. I reckoned too that we were going to need help to find Tim in that rough country – and if we were going to survive the heat ourselves.
Apart from the lunch wrap, it was pretty clear that Tim had stopped under the trees. After no trail at all, to see bent grass and scuffed ground was like a gift. We decided to stay overnight on the flat up ahead, below the ridge; that way the chopper could land nearby.
As we pressed on in the fading light, the wind came up, hot and dry. Tomorrow was going to be a stinker; not good for us or Tim. When we arrived on the flat I spent a few minutes calling his name up into the hills, but the wind in my face made sure that he wouldn’t be able to hear it.
One thing that we could count on was that there wouldn’t be any rain, so the soft sand of the creek bed was the best place to sleep. I wondered where Tim was sleeping; probably in the creek bed too. As I lay there in the firelight with those three fellas, for some strange reason I found it hard to thank them for helping me. Normally you’d just thank people with beer; but this time I had to use words. Something inside made me feel like I wasn’t being true as I thanked them, but I know that I was. What was that about?
“You’d be the first to help us, Geoff,” Mick replied, while Pete and Jim just looked down and half smiled.
They were all asleep in no time. Poor blokes must’ve been totally buggered; I know I was. But I was thinking about Timmy, up there somewhere underneath the weight of all those stars.
I thought about whether I’d ever taken him camping, and I couldn’t remember. I know that he’d done a bit with school, and that he and Jim had done a fair bit around our farms together.
Once he asked if we could go to the beach for a summer camping holiday; the only time he’d seen the ocean was one winter when we went to the coast for my mum’s funeral. I told him that there was nothing special about the beach. The truth was that we couldn’t afford to go anywhere. He just dropped his eyes to the floor and nodded. Shelley flicked me a dirty look, and I quickly said to him, “But maybe we’ll make a plan for it down the track a bit, ay?”
Tim wasn’t stupid; that was my department. He left the room, and Shelley started into me about always “robbing the boy of hope”.
“That may be your problem, Geoff,” she hissed. “But don’t you dare make it your boy’s.”
I guess she sees the stuff that I reckon I’ve got buried. Lying there, nothing felt real except the feeling deep in my guts telling me that Shell was right; and I didn’t know what crazy hope was driving Timmy; I just needed to find him.
Before I went to sleep I wanted to talk to Shelley. In spite of the guys that were with me, I felt alone and thought that she was probably feeling the same. I turned the radio on and before I said anything I thought I heard Shelley crying; she must’ve left her radio on. I didn’t know what to say. Then I heard the door and Gordon’s voice in the background. He’d probably just arrived back from Narraba. He must’ve seen Shelley crying.
“I knew I should’ve gone with them,” he said. “This just isn’t good enough.”
“What a bastard,” I thought. That was the last thing that Shelley needed. But she spoke up.
“Leave it alone, Dad.”
“But they should’ve found him by now.”
“Dad, leave it!” She was getting riled up. I’d never heard her get angry with Gordon before. “You’ve never had any time for Geoff,” she said. “Well, he’s a good man. Even if he isn’t you.”
She was defending me to the old bastard. I felt like cheering and crying at the same time. But Gordon wasn’t finished. He started with his usual line, “All I’m saying is…” but Shelley wouldn’t let him finish.
“All you’re saying is what you’ve always said, Dad – criticism from the bloody sidelines!”
Gordon got all defensive.
“Where did this come from?” He asked. Then Shell let him have it. She was crying by this time.
“It’s been twenty years coming…you always have advice for us, so here’s some from me. If you haven’t got anything good to say, then shut the fuck up!”
There was silence before I heard Sheila’s voice telling Shelley gently that she’ll call her in the morning. The door closed and Shelley cried. Then she must’ve noticed that the radio was still on.
“Geoff?” She said weakly. I didn’t answer. I still don’t know why. Then she turned the radio off.
I went to sleep thinking about Shelley and taking her on a holiday to play cricket on the beach with Tim and me, after I’d made a deal with God.
I got the fire going before first light so the chopper wouldn’t have any trouble finding us. The nor-wester was springing up again, and it was pretty warm already. Dave radioed that they were on their way; they couldn’t get here quick enough as far as I was concerned. With the temperature rising quickly, I was getting worried about Tim. You can normally survive for a few days without water, but not in this sort of heat.
When the chopper came in, dust flew up everywhere and stuck to any exposed, sweaty skin. Dave jumped out with a bag full of bacon and egg rolls that the local church ladies had made for us. I hoed in ’cause I knew I needed it to get through the day, but the truth was that I felt guilty eating while Timmy was still out there.
The State Emergency Service pilot shook my hand as he introduced himself and started speaking all official.
“Geoff, I’m Jordan from the SES. Tim’s been missing for thirty-six hours as far as we know. That’s why we have the helicopter. I’d like you to come with us, because you seem to have a fair idea of where Tim might be headed.”
That made me stop. I assumed that Tim was headed up the creek bed, but I didn’t know for sure.
“Actually,” I said. “I haven’t got a fucking clue. So far, we’ve been lucky; but to be honest, how would I know?” I started to crack. “I don’t know him…” Then I cried. Real crying, not just little sobs. I wanted to find Timmy so badly, but realized I didn’t really know him. Pete cam up beside me beside me.
“Mate, what are you on about?” he said, as he held me around the shoulders. “We’ve found a couple of pretty good clues. I reckon we’re on the right track.”
Half a day’s hiking was covered in a couple of minutes in the air. The ground was rugged and difficult, gradually getting higher in giant, boulder-covered steps, as what must have been a beautiful series of waterfalls once, gained altitude towards the vast brown plateau beyond.
“What’s that?” Jim called out. He was pointing to a dark blue object hidden in shadow at the foot of a boulder in the creek bed below. The pilot brought the chopper around, but the overhanging gums wouldn’t let us get too close. I did some quick calculations in my head and reckoned that, if that object were Timmy’s, he couldn’t have been there much before yesterday afternoon. It was worth a look; it might give us a clue.
Jordan, the pilot, went up higher to look for a place to land. A few hundred metres to the north there was a flat apron of open sandstone surrounded by scrub, which formed a level ledge on the slope. It wasn’t much bigger than the bowling club car park in town, and the wind was buffeting us all over the place, but he brought us down safely.
I was out like a shot, headed towards the creek bed. Mick and Pete were yelling at me to slow down. The trees ahead signalled the approach of the creek, and I felt a kick of adrenaline. I passed the first river gum about the same time as the ground turned steep. I took a few steps in the air then tumbled downhill, bouncing off a few large rocks and small trees as I went. When I finally stopped, I was still focussed on the blue object, which was fifty metres away on the other side of the creek bed. I didn’t notice the gash in my head nor the cuts and scratches on my legs.
Pete skidded down beside me, stood and grabbed my arm.
“Mate, I’m with you,” he said. “But you’re gonna be useless if you kill yourself!”
I looked down to where the pain was coming from in my thigh and saw the torn shorts and blood trickling out from under them.
We got to Timmy’s jumper. The ground nearby was damp where it had obviously been dug out.
“Clever boy!” said Jordan, still panting from the run. “Found himself some water.”
“Good on ya, mate.” I whispered to myself.
There was no telling how long ago he’d been there, so we had to work out whether to go on foot or in the chopper. To be honest, I felt more in control on the ground following a path, but if Tim was even half a day ahead of us, there’d be no catching him until it was too late.
I stared for a bit, thinking about what “too late” might mean, while the others discussed what to do. A few black cockies screeched on their way past, and brought me back to reality.
“I think we should take the chopper,” I said.
Everyone nodded, but Jordan reckoned that a few of us ought to continue on foot.
“That way, if Tim’s hurt or hiding, he’ll be easier to spot,” he explained. “The chopper’s good for covering ground quickly, but if he doesn’t want to be seen, it’s not hard for him to hide from it.”
Jordan suggested I go with him, and we would find somewhere further up to land and then walk back down.
“That’s if we don’t spot him from the air first,” he said.
Pete sent Jim with us too, ’cause he reckoned it’d be too hot for him as they climbed. Jim protested a bit but came anyway.
From the air it felt a bit like watching a movie, as the creek bed slowly went by. I found myself quickly looking back, after we’d passed, to try and catch Timmy hiding behind some rocks or trees. It had never occurred to me that he might not want to be found. I didn’t know how I felt about that. I had so many questions about why he’d gone; I knew that his brain worked differently, but I couldn’t help feeling that if he’d been happy or…I don’t know…more comfortable with us at home, that he might’ve been able to talk; or maybe he wouldn’t have even felt like he was to blame in the first place. I felt guilty, stupid, angry and anxious, all at once.
I just wanted to get down onto the ground and find him.
The creek bed got narrower, and gum trees and acacias made it difficult to see some parts. We could’ve been right over Tim and not known. Jordan decided to head further up, beyond where Timmy could’ve reached, to look for a place to land, so that we could head back down on foot and intercept him.
The wind had gotten stronger and landing wasn’t easy, but Jordan seemed to know what he was doing. As soon as we got down I was itching to get going, but Jordan insisted on doing his checklist. It was still early, but already over thirty-five degrees. With the wind steady all morning from the northwest, it’d easily be pushing forty by midday.
Out to the southwest, some dark clouds were brewing. That didn’t normally mean much. We’d had too many years where dark clouds would come and go, lightning would flash across the sky, and half a dozen big drops would fall; then nothing. The storm front would go on and make its way to the coast, where it’d dump a shitload of rain where no one needed it.
I didn’t like the look of those clouds. Although rain was pretty unlikely, they could’ve been bringing a nasty, squally change with random lightning strikes and trees blown down; I wanted to get going. Finally, Jordan came out of the chopper.
“OK. Geoff, before we go anywhere, I’m going to have to have a look at those wounds,” he said.
“Mate, I’m fine,” I replied, more than a little agitated. “Let’s just get going, ay?”
“Sorry Geoff, but I have a protocol to follow, and I have to make sure that the whole team is fit for the considerable task ahead of us. I don’t make the rules, mate, but I do have the right, by law, to enforce them.”
He got a little serious on the last bit, and I could see that he wasn’t kidding. My head had a bump and a gash, but after a bit of a clean-up, it was deemed to be OK. Jordan didn’t like the look of the leg wound, though.
“You’ve gone down into muscle on this one, Geoff,” he said. “You’ll probably need a bit of surgery on it.”
“Like hell!” I said.
“Settle down, mate; I don’t mean right now. I can’t do it anyway, but I will have to make sure we’ve stopped the bleeding and then strap it up.”
He got to work, while Jim stared, looking a little queasy. I was getting more impatient by the second. The nor-wester was picking up even more, which probably meant that the storm front was pushing its way closer. The thought of not finding Tim before it hit was making me almost scream inside.
“Jordan, I can’t wait any more,” I pleaded.
“I know, Geoff. I’m sorry, mate. Almost done. I want you to make it too.”
The leg seemed to hurt more after he had finished with it, but at least we were moving. This country was where the creek began, with lots of streambeds coming in at different places. The creek bed itself was very rough with steep sides.
It was tough going, especially with me favouring one leg, though I did my best not to show it. After about twenty minutes, although the banks were steeper, the bed levelled out and became sandier.
Dave was on the radio asking how we were going. Jordan explained the delay, and that we were headed down at a pretty good pace. They hadn’t seen anything, just some inconclusive tracks that could’ve been an animal’s. It bothered me that they might get to Timmy before me, but it also bothered me that they hadn’t seen any sign of him. They had to have been going for at least an hour.
“Did you look behind things – you know, rocks and trees?” I asked. “In case he didn’t want you to find him…”
Their answer didn’t fill me with confidence that they’d checked everywhere. I started to feel a bit frantic, like I had to look everywhere, under everything. Jim was giving me strange looks. I started to feel like I was losing control.
My leg was worse and I was struggling to stay on my feet in places. Jordan finally said something when he spotted blood trickling down my leg.
“Mind if I have a look at your leg, Geoff?”
“I’m fine, mate,” I snapped back at him. “More important things to worry about.”
Jordan got serious. “Don’t make me pull rank, Geoff.” I blew my stack.
“Listen Jordan, I don’t care if you’re the fucking Queen of Sheba! Just try and stop me!”
We stood looking at each other for what seemed like an hour. He was looking at me like he was weighing up his options. I noticed myself breathing hard. Finally, he spoke.
“Well, at least let me have a look at it. You can’t be losing blood like that, mate.”
I knew he was making sense and I knew my leg wasn’t good.
“OK,” I said. “Five minutes.”
I sat on a rock and he started to undo the bandage; it was soaked in blood. He’d just about got it off when I saw some movement ahead.
“Timmy!” I yelled, jumped up and started running. After a dozen steps, the movement had stopped, and I stared at Mick, Pete and Dave, while Jordan came up behind me.
“Time for a planning meeting, Geoff.”
Everyone stood around while Jordan worked on my leg and conducted the meeting at the same time.
“Well, it’s not what we’d hoped for but at least we know more than we did. It looks like Tim might’ve struck out from the creek after he reached the plateau.”
I wasn’t convinced.
“Are you sure you looked everywhere?” I asked them all again. “Tim’s been using the creek as his guide for over two days. Why would he just light out into the saltbush? There’s no rain out there!” I could feel my throat starting to tense up and my voice crack. Jordan spoke up.
“OK, here’s what I reckon.” He stopped and stared like he was putting it all together in his head. “A few of us backtrack to the chopper, make sure we didn’t miss anything. Then we’ll do some wide sweeps from the air.”
“I just don’t think he’d leave the creek,” I said.
“Right. Well that’s why you should continue down the creek and double-check. But first things first.” He looked at my leg, “This is pretty swollen above the wound.” That’s where it was hurting.
He told me it might hurt as he pulled open the wound with forceps. He wasn’t wrong.
“How did I miss that?” He said and told me to hold tight as he dug in further. It felt like he was trying to pull my thigh muscle out. He produced a sizeable chunk of wood before flushing the wound with water then packing it and wrapping it firmly. He stepped back to survey his work.
“OK,” he said. That’s the best I can do. You shouldn’t even be walking on it until you can get it stitched.
“It’s OK, mate. It’s all downhill from here,” I said.
“One more thing,” said Jordan. “He jabbed a hypodermic into my leg. “That’ll keep you going for a bit. “Alright then,” he continued. “Who’s coming with me?”
“I’ll go with Geoff,” said Pete. Then Jim chimed in, sort of looking at his Dad but speaking to me.
“If Tim’s hiding, he might come out for me.”
“Come on then, mate,” I said, suddenly really grateful, but also really embarrassed; Jim had been such a good friend to Tim, while it was slowly becoming clear to me what a bloody tool I’d been over the years.
Jordan gave us a two-hour maximum
“We’ll have to be out by the time that weather comes in,” he said, pointing to the southwest. “I’m sorry, Geoff.”
We took a radio and headed off straight away.
I figured that being quiet and keeping our eyes peeled was our best bet; but a big part of me didn’t think that Tim would hide. That just wasn’t like him. Then another thought hit me. What if he wasn’t meaning to hide but was sleeping or hurt?
“Let’s search around everything,” I said to the others. “Every rock, every tree.”
After about twenty minutes, we came around a bend where a large stony ledge made a step a few metres high across the full width of the creek bed. Below, some larger rocks were grouped in a couple of piles and about fifty metres beyond that, a huge gum tree had fallen right across, from one bank to the other.
Jim was on the right as the three of us were spread across the creek. He was the first one down the step and called out.
“Is that you, Tim?!” He started running towards the base of the gum tree; then he suddenly stopped.
Pete and I caught up; Jim was scared as we looked to where he was pointing.
“Is he dead?”
From underneath a bush, Tim’s boot was sticking out. I ran, yelling to Pete to call the chopper.
I was finding it hard to see, then I realised that I was crying and calling out Tim’s name. I got down on the ground and crawled in. Tim was still and I couldn’t tell if he was breathing. Then his eyes flickered and I grabbed him and held him.
I gave him some water and he winced. His leg was swollen and blue. I didn’t like the look of it. Pete came up and told me that the others were still fifteen minutes from getting back to the chopper, but they’d be as quick as they could.
The water was helping, and Tim was able to open his eyes.
“How are you, Timmy?” I asked. “You were a hard bloke to find.”
It was another twenty minutes before Jordan and the others arrived. I felt helpless as I watched Jordan get Tim stabilized; then we carried him to the chopper. I’d radioed Shelley and she was going to meet us at the hospital.
The storm front was nearly on us as we took off. Jordan radioed ahead, and flew straight to the hospital in Canning Point.
It was all a bit of a blur when we got there. I hobbled in with Tim but they stopped me at the entrance to the operating theatre. A nurse walked me back to the waiting room just as Shelley arrived with Karen; Gordon and Sheila had come separately.
I collapsed into a chair next to Mick, and Shell sat beside me. Then Dave walked in.
“How is he?” He asked me. I opened my mouth but nothing came out. Mick answered for me.
“He’s just gone into the theatre; we won’t know for a while.”
“Well”, said Dave. “Jordan sends his best to you.”
I felt like how I reckon a zombie would feel, but I was sorry that I didn’t get to thank Jordan and say goodbye to him. Then, Shelley grabbed my hand and I looked at her face. She’d been crying but she looked beautiful. She kissed me on the forehead.
“Thank you for finding our Timmy,” she said.
I rested my head on her shoulder hoping that we hadn’t been too late when a nurse bustled in and told me that they were ready to fix my leg.
After I came back it was still an hour or so before the surgeon appeared and told us that Tim was going to be OK. He’d broken his femur up near the hip and a piece of bone had nicked the artery. But they were able to fix him up. We were lucky.
When the surgeon left there was a ripple of relief that went around the waiting room. Mick grabbed my arm with a huge smile on his face. Even little Jim came up and gave me a hug. Next thing I knew, Gordon was standing in front of me with Sheila beside him.
“Ah, Geoff…Shelley,” he started but looked pretty uncomfortable. Sheila whispered in his ear but he brushed her off.
“I…I’ve been wrong,” he continued. “I’ll try to do better.” Then Sheila whispered in his ear again trying to get him to say sorry. I decided to put him out of his misery.
“Well, Gordon,” I said. “I have a message for you from the pastor.” I could feel Mick squirming in the seat next to me. “And he reckons I should give you a seven out of ten for trying.” Mick chuckled and Gordon reached out his hand. It was weird, almost like he had to do it but didn’t want to. I looked at his face, this old bastard who’d been the fly in our ointment for too long. He couldn’t look me in the eye and that made me feel a bit sorry for him. I thought about Shell…and Tim, and thought better of taking his hand.
“I think we might have a few things to work on first, Gordon,” I said. Shelley squeezed my arm and put her head on my shoulder.
Tim healed up pretty well but his leg was in a cast for a long time. One night, about a month down the track, he was sitting on our veranda watching the sunset. Pete, Karen and Jim were coming over for dinner. Shell was putting the finishing touches on things and I took a drink out for Tim because he still wasn’t too mobile. I could tell he’d been pondering something.
He started straight up telling me about when he was out in the dry; he’d had a dream about an old indigenous bloke who laughed and didn’t believe him when Tim said that he was looking for rain.
“What else would I be doing out there?” He asked me. That question sort of hit me in the guts and I didn’t know how to answer it. It was just out of the blue. I teared up a bit and he got worried.
“Maybe…we were looking for each other,” I finally said.
He got this kind of puzzled look.
“But I was going in the other direction,” he said.
“Yeah, well…maybe I needed a bit of a boot up the arse to help me get looking. I’m not the sharpest tool in the shed, mate.”
Then it was quiet for a while and I went to go back into the kitchen.
“Dad?” Tim was frowning, so I got down beside him. “Did we find each other?”
On that he looked straight into my eyes, something I couldn’t ever remember him doing before.
“I reckon,” I said.
The corner of his mouth turned up just a bit, like he was pretty happy with that.
All measurements are metric: one litre is a little over two U.S. pints; forty degrees Celsius is one-hundred- and four-degrees Fahrenheit; one kilometre is about two-thirds of a mile.
Abattoir – slaughterhouse
Ambos – ambulancemen/paramedics
Arse – British, Australian and New Zealand for ass/backside
Black Cockatoo/Black Cockies – very large, native parrot with distinctive call
Bugger all – next to nothing
Bugger off – leave
Buggered – exhausted
Bull Ants – large, slightly venomous, biting ants
Cordial – fruit syrup and water; squash
Cotton Wool – soft, fluffy cotton, like cotton batting
Council – Local County
Crook – Sick, unwell
Dreaming – Religio-cultural worldview in Aboriginal Australian beliefs
Dropping the baby – giving birth
Eighty K’s – Eighty kilometres – about fifty miles
Going off – A fit of rage
Gum trees – eucalypts
Jumper – woollen sweater
Narky – irritable, short-tempered
Never-Never – remote, desolate country
Nicked up – slipped by, ran
Paddock – enclosed field or pasture
Paperbark – type of eucalypt with loose bark that resembles paper
Red-belly – red-bellied black snake – venomous Australian reptile
Rock Wallaby – large marsupial, similar to a small kangaroo, that lives and hunts in rocky areas.
Roo – Kangaroo
Sanga – Sandwich
Scrub – low, bushy growth
Shitload – an enormous amount
Tomato Sauce – tomato ketchup
Torch – flashlight
Ute – Pick-up truck
Walkabout – a journey on foot of indeterminate length or destination
Wombat – large, burrowing marsupial
This is a good story. I enjoyed reading it.
Thanks Audrey. I’m glad.
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